Each day just goes so fast
I turn around, it's past
You don't get time to hang a sign on me
Love me while you can
Or I'll get a plan
A lifetime is so short
A new one can't be bought
But what you've got means such a lot to me
Make love all day long
Make love singing songs
Saturday, September 29, 2012
What Goes On?
I met you in the morning
Waiting for the tides of time
But now the tide is turning
I can see that I was blind
It's so easy for a boy like you to lie
Tell me why
Waiting for the tides of time
But now the tide is turning
I can see that I was blind
It's so easy for a boy like you to lie
Tell me why
-
Although I laugh and I act like a clown
Beneath this mask I am wearing a frown
My tears are falling like rain from the sky
Is it for him or myself that I cry
Beneath this mask I am wearing a frown
My tears are falling like rain from the sky
Is it for him or myself that I cry
I'll cry instead
I've got every reason on earth to be mad
Cos I've just lost the only boy I had
And if I could get my way
I'd get myself locked up today
But I can't so I cry instead
Cos I've just lost the only boy I had
And if I could get my way
I'd get myself locked up today
But I can't so I cry instead
If I Fell
If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
Cos I've been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
Cos I've been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands
I'll be back - The Beatles
You know if you break my heart I'll go
But I'll be back again
Cos I told you once before goodbye
But I came back again
I love you so
I'm the one who wants you
Yes, I'm the one
Who wants you, oh ho, oh ho, oh
You could find better things to do
Than to break my heart again
This time I will try to show that I'm
Not trying to pretend
I thought that you would realize
That if I ran away from you
That you would want me too
But I got a big surprise
Oh ho, oh ho, oh
You could find better things to do
Than to break my heart again
This time I will try to show that I'm
Not trying to pretend
I wanna go but I hate to leave you,
You know I hate to leave you , oh ho, oh ho, oh
You, if you break my heart I'll go
But I'll be back again
Monday, September 24, 2012
No More Ouch!!
Wohoooo!! Got so many spirits from my tees :)
Terkadang emang berat buat berusaha ngelupain semua kenangan, tapi... semakin diinget,... semakin aja tambah benci.. Atau mungkin karena kebencian itu juga butuh proses kali yaaa? hahaha :D
Semakin kesini semakin belajar, gimana caranya gak terlarut dalam kesedihan. Toh hidup terlalu sia-sia kalo kita pake cuma untuk bersedih.
Kebahagiaan gue saat ini adalah berada semakin dekat dengan keluarga gue. Dengan banyaknya motivasi yang diberikan orang tua gue. Semakin membara-bara niat gue untuk mencapai cita-cita gue. Jadi nggak pengen kuliah lama-lama. Pengen buru-buru kerja dan ngelanjutin S2. Udah mulai banyak referensi untuk menggapai semuanya... banyak jalan yang coba orang tua gue berikan untuk gue.. Dan gue berharap doa mereka gak pernah putus untuk gue, termasuk mendoakan gue untuk melanjutkan kuliah gue sampai ke luar negeri. Amin!!
Dan berbagai angan-anganpun mulai berdatangan didalam pikiran gue, tinggal mengatur strategi gimana caranya semua bisa menjadi nyata. Dan sepertinya gue harus menghapus cita-cita lama gue untuk menikah diusia muda. Karena gue percaya semua pasti ada jalannya. Mungkin saat ini gue harus lebih semangat untuk masa depan gue, seakan tuhan berbisik "semua orang terlahir berpasangan, jodohmu tak akan kemana"....
Terkadang emang berat buat berusaha ngelupain semua kenangan, tapi... semakin diinget,... semakin aja tambah benci.. Atau mungkin karena kebencian itu juga butuh proses kali yaaa? hahaha :D
Semakin kesini semakin belajar, gimana caranya gak terlarut dalam kesedihan. Toh hidup terlalu sia-sia kalo kita pake cuma untuk bersedih.
Kebahagiaan gue saat ini adalah berada semakin dekat dengan keluarga gue. Dengan banyaknya motivasi yang diberikan orang tua gue. Semakin membara-bara niat gue untuk mencapai cita-cita gue. Jadi nggak pengen kuliah lama-lama. Pengen buru-buru kerja dan ngelanjutin S2. Udah mulai banyak referensi untuk menggapai semuanya... banyak jalan yang coba orang tua gue berikan untuk gue.. Dan gue berharap doa mereka gak pernah putus untuk gue, termasuk mendoakan gue untuk melanjutkan kuliah gue sampai ke luar negeri. Amin!!
Dan berbagai angan-anganpun mulai berdatangan didalam pikiran gue, tinggal mengatur strategi gimana caranya semua bisa menjadi nyata. Dan sepertinya gue harus menghapus cita-cita lama gue untuk menikah diusia muda. Karena gue percaya semua pasti ada jalannya. Mungkin saat ini gue harus lebih semangat untuk masa depan gue, seakan tuhan berbisik "semua orang terlahir berpasangan, jodohmu tak akan kemana"....
Fade Away -
When I was young
I thought I had my own key
I knew exactly
What I wanted to be
Now I'm sure
You've boarded up every door
Lived in a bubble
Days were never ending
Was not concerned
About what life was sending
Fantasy was real
Now I know much about the way I feel
I'll paint you the picture
'Cause I don't think
You live round here no more
I've never even seen
The key to the door
We only get what we will settle for
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away away away
They fade away away away
Now my life has turned
Another corner
I think it's only best
That I should warn you
Dream it while you can
Maybe someday I'll make you understand
I'll paint you the picture
'Cause I don't think
You live round here no more
I've never even seen
The key to the door
We only get what we will settle for
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away away away
They fade away away away
They fade away away away
Fade away away away
I thought I had my own key
I knew exactly
What I wanted to be
Now I'm sure
You've boarded up every door
Lived in a bubble
Days were never ending
Was not concerned
About what life was sending
Fantasy was real
Now I know much about the way I feel
I'll paint you the picture
'Cause I don't think
You live round here no more
I've never even seen
The key to the door
We only get what we will settle for
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away away away
They fade away away away
Now my life has turned
Another corner
I think it's only best
That I should warn you
Dream it while you can
Maybe someday I'll make you understand
I'll paint you the picture
'Cause I don't think
You live round here no more
I've never even seen
The key to the door
We only get what we will settle for
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away
While we're living
The dreams we have as children fade away away away
They fade away away away
They fade away away away
Fade away away away
Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds - (It's Good) To Be Free
Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds - (It's Good) To Be Free
Berulang- Ulang kali denger lagu ini, tetep nyangkut ditelinga :)
Head like a rock spinning round and round
I found it in a hole sitting upside down
You point the finger at me but I don't believe
Paint me a wish on a velvet sky
You demand the answers but I don't know why in my mind
There is no time
But the little things they make me so happy
All I want to do is live by the sea
Little things they make me so happy
But it's good it's good it's good to be free
So what would you say if I said to you
It's not in what you say it's in what you do
You point the finger at me but I don't believe
Bring it on home to where we found
My head like a rock sitting upside down
In my mind there is no time
But the little things they make me so happy
All I want to do is live by the sea
Little things they make me so happy
But it's good it's good it's good to be free
Berulang- Ulang kali denger lagu ini, tetep nyangkut ditelinga :)
Head like a rock spinning round and round
I found it in a hole sitting upside down
You point the finger at me but I don't believe
Paint me a wish on a velvet sky
You demand the answers but I don't know why in my mind
There is no time
But the little things they make me so happy
All I want to do is live by the sea
Little things they make me so happy
But it's good it's good it's good to be free
So what would you say if I said to you
It's not in what you say it's in what you do
You point the finger at me but I don't believe
Bring it on home to where we found
My head like a rock sitting upside down
In my mind there is no time
But the little things they make me so happy
All I want to do is live by the sea
Little things they make me so happy
But it's good it's good it's good to be free
Saturday, September 22, 2012
OUCH! PART 2
It just like something going wrong in my head! Uh! Why am i so easily lost my concentrate lately? Uh well nevermind!!!! Yo guys.. being together with people you loved the most is such a wonderful things that God given to you. It can help you to forgot how your life was, changing it with a brand new plan. Deleting all of your bad luck, and changing it with a confidence's smile. So, why don't we holding our hands together and share our smiles? BLAH! Everything seems so easy to talk about but it's really hard like hell to do.
by the way, how's you doing guys? everything good? Oh great! Hello :)
Terkadang emang gak mudah untuk menjadi apa yang orang lain inginkan pada diri kita, tapi justru pada saat itulah harusnya kita berusaha setengah mati untuk mempertahankan diri kita yang sesungguhnya. Karena itulah kita. Suka atau nggak suka ya kalian harus terima. ya kalau emang gak mau terima ya silahkan menjauh. Bak hukum rimba, yang kuat ya pasti yang menang. Semakin kuat orang itu mau mengubah diri kamu, harusnya kamu makin kuat mempertahankan diri kamu, karena semakin kuat diri kamu, orang yang ingin merubah kamu akan semakin kehilangan jati dirinya. Obsessed and depressed at the same time. Sorry Out of topic, tapi ini nggak tau mengalir gitu aja ehehe.
Oh Crap! Hari kamis depan aku kebagian kelas Microteaching yang notabenenya aku harus ngajar didepan teman2 sekelasku. Penilaian dilakukan ketika awal aku membuka pintu kelas! Hell! Aku masih gak tau konsep apa yang bakal aku gunain, dan.......... aku masih gak tau sekarang harus gimana. Berasa blank banget gak bisa mikir. hahahaha
Hard Day! Hard Day! Terlalu banyak tugas yang harus aku selesaikan!! Seriously! I'm kinda fed up!
Tapi ada bagusnya juga.. tugas2 ini selalu membuat aku gak pernah merasa sendiri.. Karena ketika pikiranku mulai ngacir kemana2.. mulai banyak hal negatif masuk.... kemudian tugas2ku lah yang akan menangkal semuanya.. mengusirnya secara perlahan, sehingga aku gak perlu mikirin itu semua lagi.
Agak beda ya rasanya hari-hari yang kita laluin tanpa orang yang biasanya ada disamping kita. Biasanya ada tempat berkeluh kesah, berbagi kesedihan, berbagi kebahagiaan, berbagi cerita, berbagi segalanya.. Emang yang namanya menghilangkan kebiasaan itu sangat susah! Apalagi kalo harus kehilangan.. sangatlah susah!! Mempertahankan pendirian, tetap fokus sama apa yang kita hadapi! Ya... everything is gonna be Okay! Aku yakin semua akan kembali menjadi normal. Dan semua akan tetap menjadi kenangan yang tersimpan rapi dalam buku kisah hidupku.. dan pada halaman inilah yang akan aku jadikan garis besar hidupku. Halaman inilah yang akan menyadarkanku dalam semua hal! Dan aku harap halaman inilah yang bisa bikin aku tetap tegar dan semakin dewasa.. Memaknai arti hidup, bahkan yang sedang kita alami itu nggak gampang ternyata yah.. setiap orang punya cara dan sikap dalam menghadapinya... satu hal yang sangat aku tekankan dalam halaman ini adalah PEACE, LOVE, EMPATHY~ pasti udah pada sering denger dong kata2 tersebut.. kata2 yang terlontarkan dari seorang Kurt Cobain yang sebagian orang anggap loser dan sebagian orang anggap dia hero. Gak jauh beda sama keputusan yang kita buat, pasti selalu ada dua kubu yang memiliki pemahaman berbeda, yang satu pro dan yang satu kontra. Inilah hidup! Selalu penuh kontroversi. Setiap orang mempertahankan anggapannya masing-masing. Namun seandainya setiap orang dapat mengilhami arti dari kata Empathy itu sendiri, mungkin gak akan ada kegelisahan seperti ini. Layaknya rumput di halaman yang tenang... mengerti keadaan bagaimana angin berhembus tanpa merontokkan bunga-bunganya.. dunia mungkin terasa lebih indah.
Jikalau kesadaran datang lebih awal, mungkin nggak akan ada waktu yang terbuang sia-sia.. atau mungkin memang tidak ada... Tanpa adanya keputusan, kita tidak akan membuat suatu kenangan.. Mungkin inilah garis hidup yang harus kita lewati.. Bagaikan garisan takdir yang selalu menuntun kamu untuk mencapai jalan akhirmu... Selalu maju dan terus maju..
Hal-hal yang paling susah dilupakan sebenernya adalah hal-hal sederhana yang sering kita lakukan. kita duduk bercerita, tertawa dan bahagia. Atau mungkin aku cemberut dan kamu kebingungan. Lalu kemudian kamu bergoyang layaknya seorang idiot tak terlihat oleh siapapun. dan kita tertawa, ataupun datar. Semua terasa sangat berarti ketika telah tiada.. namun waktu pasti akan menggantikan semua.. dengan yang lebih indah.. percayalah!!!...
Ketika kita berharap, bermimpi dan berkhayalkan semua masa depan kita yang indah... aku tau Tuhan mendengar.. aku tau Tuhan pasti punya rencana untuk kita.. karena apapun yang kita bicarakan adalah doa kita. Dia pasti punya rencana. Atau mungkin Tuhan merasa ini bukan garis yang telah ia buat.. Ini bukanlah seperti apa yang kita harapkan, apa yang kita inginkan.. Sehingga dia mematahkan semua harapan kita saat ini.. dan mungkin menggantinya dengan garis yang lebih indah.. yang lebih tepat baginya dijalannya..
Ketika harapan kita sudah tidak sejalan dengan kenyataan yang terjadi.. Kebanyakan dari kita hanya mengeluh, bersedih, dan membenci atau menyesalinya.. Manusiawi sekali... Perlu hati yang kuat untuk berlapang dada.. Berharap suatu keajaiban dapat mengubahnya... Penyesalan yang kerap kali datang diharapkan menghilang, karena ia hanya membuat semuanya semakin keruh. Harapan yang gugur harus dijauhkan dengan penyesalan. Karena semua ini gak perlu ada yang disesali. Ini buku kita.. Kita lah yang menorehkan tintanya..
Tuangkanlah semua dengan coretan yang indah. Agar kelak anak cucukmu dapat tersenyum ketika kamu menceritakan semua :)
Keep fighting!!! Jangan pernah menyerah sama semua cita-cita yang telah kamu buat! Kalau mungkin itu jauh dari realia saat ini, yakinlah mimpi itu akan datang di lain waktu..
Maaf kalo tulisannya agak nyambung kesana kemari. Efek ngantuk dan gak konsen.. Cuma apa yang lagi ada dikepala keluar gitu aja. Sekarang tepat Jam 2 am. Aku masih nunggu pelangi datang di malam ini.. Selamat tidur :) Love. xo
by the way, how's you doing guys? everything good? Oh great! Hello :)
Terkadang emang gak mudah untuk menjadi apa yang orang lain inginkan pada diri kita, tapi justru pada saat itulah harusnya kita berusaha setengah mati untuk mempertahankan diri kita yang sesungguhnya. Karena itulah kita. Suka atau nggak suka ya kalian harus terima. ya kalau emang gak mau terima ya silahkan menjauh. Bak hukum rimba, yang kuat ya pasti yang menang. Semakin kuat orang itu mau mengubah diri kamu, harusnya kamu makin kuat mempertahankan diri kamu, karena semakin kuat diri kamu, orang yang ingin merubah kamu akan semakin kehilangan jati dirinya. Obsessed and depressed at the same time. Sorry Out of topic, tapi ini nggak tau mengalir gitu aja ehehe.
Oh Crap! Hari kamis depan aku kebagian kelas Microteaching yang notabenenya aku harus ngajar didepan teman2 sekelasku. Penilaian dilakukan ketika awal aku membuka pintu kelas! Hell! Aku masih gak tau konsep apa yang bakal aku gunain, dan.......... aku masih gak tau sekarang harus gimana. Berasa blank banget gak bisa mikir. hahahaha
Hard Day! Hard Day! Terlalu banyak tugas yang harus aku selesaikan!! Seriously! I'm kinda fed up!
Tapi ada bagusnya juga.. tugas2 ini selalu membuat aku gak pernah merasa sendiri.. Karena ketika pikiranku mulai ngacir kemana2.. mulai banyak hal negatif masuk.... kemudian tugas2ku lah yang akan menangkal semuanya.. mengusirnya secara perlahan, sehingga aku gak perlu mikirin itu semua lagi.
Agak beda ya rasanya hari-hari yang kita laluin tanpa orang yang biasanya ada disamping kita. Biasanya ada tempat berkeluh kesah, berbagi kesedihan, berbagi kebahagiaan, berbagi cerita, berbagi segalanya.. Emang yang namanya menghilangkan kebiasaan itu sangat susah! Apalagi kalo harus kehilangan.. sangatlah susah!! Mempertahankan pendirian, tetap fokus sama apa yang kita hadapi! Ya... everything is gonna be Okay! Aku yakin semua akan kembali menjadi normal. Dan semua akan tetap menjadi kenangan yang tersimpan rapi dalam buku kisah hidupku.. dan pada halaman inilah yang akan aku jadikan garis besar hidupku. Halaman inilah yang akan menyadarkanku dalam semua hal! Dan aku harap halaman inilah yang bisa bikin aku tetap tegar dan semakin dewasa.. Memaknai arti hidup, bahkan yang sedang kita alami itu nggak gampang ternyata yah.. setiap orang punya cara dan sikap dalam menghadapinya... satu hal yang sangat aku tekankan dalam halaman ini adalah PEACE, LOVE, EMPATHY~ pasti udah pada sering denger dong kata2 tersebut.. kata2 yang terlontarkan dari seorang Kurt Cobain yang sebagian orang anggap loser dan sebagian orang anggap dia hero. Gak jauh beda sama keputusan yang kita buat, pasti selalu ada dua kubu yang memiliki pemahaman berbeda, yang satu pro dan yang satu kontra. Inilah hidup! Selalu penuh kontroversi. Setiap orang mempertahankan anggapannya masing-masing. Namun seandainya setiap orang dapat mengilhami arti dari kata Empathy itu sendiri, mungkin gak akan ada kegelisahan seperti ini. Layaknya rumput di halaman yang tenang... mengerti keadaan bagaimana angin berhembus tanpa merontokkan bunga-bunganya.. dunia mungkin terasa lebih indah.
Jikalau kesadaran datang lebih awal, mungkin nggak akan ada waktu yang terbuang sia-sia.. atau mungkin memang tidak ada... Tanpa adanya keputusan, kita tidak akan membuat suatu kenangan.. Mungkin inilah garis hidup yang harus kita lewati.. Bagaikan garisan takdir yang selalu menuntun kamu untuk mencapai jalan akhirmu... Selalu maju dan terus maju..
Hal-hal yang paling susah dilupakan sebenernya adalah hal-hal sederhana yang sering kita lakukan. kita duduk bercerita, tertawa dan bahagia. Atau mungkin aku cemberut dan kamu kebingungan. Lalu kemudian kamu bergoyang layaknya seorang idiot tak terlihat oleh siapapun. dan kita tertawa, ataupun datar. Semua terasa sangat berarti ketika telah tiada.. namun waktu pasti akan menggantikan semua.. dengan yang lebih indah.. percayalah!!!...
Ketika kita berharap, bermimpi dan berkhayalkan semua masa depan kita yang indah... aku tau Tuhan mendengar.. aku tau Tuhan pasti punya rencana untuk kita.. karena apapun yang kita bicarakan adalah doa kita. Dia pasti punya rencana. Atau mungkin Tuhan merasa ini bukan garis yang telah ia buat.. Ini bukanlah seperti apa yang kita harapkan, apa yang kita inginkan.. Sehingga dia mematahkan semua harapan kita saat ini.. dan mungkin menggantinya dengan garis yang lebih indah.. yang lebih tepat baginya dijalannya..
Ketika harapan kita sudah tidak sejalan dengan kenyataan yang terjadi.. Kebanyakan dari kita hanya mengeluh, bersedih, dan membenci atau menyesalinya.. Manusiawi sekali... Perlu hati yang kuat untuk berlapang dada.. Berharap suatu keajaiban dapat mengubahnya... Penyesalan yang kerap kali datang diharapkan menghilang, karena ia hanya membuat semuanya semakin keruh. Harapan yang gugur harus dijauhkan dengan penyesalan. Karena semua ini gak perlu ada yang disesali. Ini buku kita.. Kita lah yang menorehkan tintanya..
Tuangkanlah semua dengan coretan yang indah. Agar kelak anak cucukmu dapat tersenyum ketika kamu menceritakan semua :)
Keep fighting!!! Jangan pernah menyerah sama semua cita-cita yang telah kamu buat! Kalau mungkin itu jauh dari realia saat ini, yakinlah mimpi itu akan datang di lain waktu..
Maaf kalo tulisannya agak nyambung kesana kemari. Efek ngantuk dan gak konsen.. Cuma apa yang lagi ada dikepala keluar gitu aja. Sekarang tepat Jam 2 am. Aku masih nunggu pelangi datang di malam ini.. Selamat tidur :) Love. xo
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
OUCH!.
Hiiii there!! It's been a long time! it really doesn't mean that i forgot this site or something, i'm just Lazy! yeah Lazy :) don't ask me why am i lazy because it's my hobby anyway.
it so confusing if I should start writing something again, cuz i've got a lotta things in my brain to write about, just confuse to choose what should I tell first.
Anyway, WELCOME TO 7th SEMESTER :D
It just like a dream by the way, it seems like yesterday I was a new student in my college, and now Gosssssh i'm in 7th semester, it's only about 2 steps closer to the Graduate-things! I just realize how fast time goes by. As they didn't gave me a minutes to breathe. How bored my life was.
It almost mid-night here. Honestly I really wanna share my holiday photo while i was in Lombok and Bali, but I'm not thinking that this is the right time. So, We'll wait then.. hehehe
By the way, did you ever feel like you are totally upset with someone? Someone who you love so much? and how it feels like eh?
I never give an excuse if everyone made a mistakes. but repeatedly? Over and over again? Same old story? Seriously? You must be killing me :D
How if I said this is the hardest part of my life? Anyone? Okay thanks Ed Sheeran who was singing U.N.I while I write this post hahaha. Um, Hey! How if I said it's over? It could be okay right? I bet no one will be upset now :)
Dear... Peace, Love and Empathy.
This is the last thing that I could said. Nothing more than this. I know what's your feeling now, so do I! I must know how my feeling then! I just don't think everything gonna be OK if we're still together! Maybe it could be worst! We're deserve to be happy, without hurting each other. We already tried everything in our time together to made everything fine. But if this is the end of the story, you must be gladddd!!!! You keep this line more than anyone. So am I. I'm proud I EVER be the one that you love. even I'm not sure with that. But let's talk about our happiness. Maybe you'll ever know how beautiful you are to me, that's make me guilty! Sorry for it, I shoulda take a deep breathe to said it in front of your face. And the fact was I'm a loser. I'm a dick! I don't even have a power to said that. That was made you fly away from me...
ah.. that's a wrap! It's 12 am. So, good night and have a wonderful dream to everyone. xoxo :)
it so confusing if I should start writing something again, cuz i've got a lotta things in my brain to write about, just confuse to choose what should I tell first.
Anyway, WELCOME TO 7th SEMESTER :D
It just like a dream by the way, it seems like yesterday I was a new student in my college, and now Gosssssh i'm in 7th semester, it's only about 2 steps closer to the Graduate-things! I just realize how fast time goes by. As they didn't gave me a minutes to breathe. How bored my life was.
It almost mid-night here. Honestly I really wanna share my holiday photo while i was in Lombok and Bali, but I'm not thinking that this is the right time. So, We'll wait then.. hehehe
By the way, did you ever feel like you are totally upset with someone? Someone who you love so much? and how it feels like eh?
I never give an excuse if everyone made a mistakes. but repeatedly? Over and over again? Same old story? Seriously? You must be killing me :D
How if I said this is the hardest part of my life? Anyone? Okay thanks Ed Sheeran who was singing U.N.I while I write this post hahaha. Um, Hey! How if I said it's over? It could be okay right? I bet no one will be upset now :)
Dear... Peace, Love and Empathy.
This is the last thing that I could said. Nothing more than this. I know what's your feeling now, so do I! I must know how my feeling then! I just don't think everything gonna be OK if we're still together! Maybe it could be worst! We're deserve to be happy, without hurting each other. We already tried everything in our time together to made everything fine. But if this is the end of the story, you must be gladddd!!!! You keep this line more than anyone. So am I. I'm proud I EVER be the one that you love. even I'm not sure with that. But let's talk about our happiness. Maybe you'll ever know how beautiful you are to me, that's make me guilty! Sorry for it, I shoulda take a deep breathe to said it in front of your face. And the fact was I'm a loser. I'm a dick! I don't even have a power to said that. That was made you fly away from me...
ah.. that's a wrap! It's 12 am. So, good night and have a wonderful dream to everyone. xoxo :)
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
HAMMERSONIC- JAKARTA INTERNATIONAL METAL FESTIVAL!
yaaa. kira kira 4 hari lagi nih acara bakal digelar. buat kalian yg emang penasaran pengen dengerin langsung lagu Kafirnya si Nile yang konyol itu, silahkan dataaaaang :D fyi, ini band metal Indonesianya juga bagus2 kok. rata-rata band lama semua, jadi pasti kalian udah kenal semua lah sama band-band di atas. arga tiketnya juga relatif kok, gak terlalu mahal dan gak terlalu murah. mungkin murah banget kalo kalian dapetnya ticket advance. sayang presalenya juga udah gak sempet kebeli karena sekarang udah tanggal 24. sebenernya gue agak telat juga sih tau kabar dari datangnya band band ini kesini, gue baru tau acara ini pas liat banner dijalan sekitar hari sabtu kemarin. honestly, gue pengen nonton!! tapi pacar gue gak mau nemenin karna dia gak suka. and he's exactly avoid me to watch this concert. oh God! but nope. i'm gonna hear how crowd the stage is from y'll. so, tell meeeh ya nanti :p
Been Down So Long - The Doors!
Well, I've been down so Goddamn long
That it looks like up to me
Well, I've been down so very damn long
That it looks like up to me
Yeah, why don't one you people
C'mon and set me free
I said, warden, warden, warden
Won't you break your lock and key
I said, warden, warden, warden
Won't ya break your lock and key
Yeah, come along here, mister
C'mon and let the poor boy be
Baby, baby, baby
Won't you get down on your knees
Baby, baby, baby
Won't you get down on your knees
C'mon little darlin'
C'mon and give your love to me, oh yeah
Well, I've been down so Goddamn long
That it looks like up to me
Well, I've been down so very damn long
That it looks like up to me
Yeah, why don't one you people
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon and set me free
C'mon baby set me free! Lol i really meant it!
Saturday, April 21, 2012
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME :)
Unbelievable.. i just dont believe that time is running so fast. Hell yeah, here they now. 20th of april.. um maybe im late to post this thing, but honestly i was trying from the afternoon. Well, just really excited cuz i've got some surprised from my beloved friends, rusda, yayah and zahra. I love them. also a phone call from Niyai and also Tante Nuy (ryan's grandma and aunty). And i've got some beautiful message from my mom. Here:
21 thn tepat jam 09.50 wib tgl 20 april 1991 ku melahirkan putri mungil yg lucu, tk terasa skg tumbuh menjadi gadis dewasa , "SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN Putriku, panjang umur,sehat sll, jd anak yg sholeha, berbakti kpd orang Tua, sayang ma adik2, perduli sama org lain, rendah hati, dn sukses dlm meraih cita2 itu harapan mama dan doa mama sll menyertaimu.
i just wana say, i love you mom :')
21 thn tepat jam 09.50 wib tgl 20 april 1991 ku melahirkan putri mungil yg lucu, tk terasa skg tumbuh menjadi gadis dewasa , "SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN Putriku, panjang umur,sehat sll, jd anak yg sholeha, berbakti kpd orang Tua, sayang ma adik2, perduli sama org lain, rendah hati, dn sukses dlm meraih cita2 itu harapan mama dan doa mama sll menyertaimu.
i just wana say, i love you mom :')
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
The Trees and The Wild - Rasuk (Lyric)
Well, msndadak dengerin album2 lama yang udah jarang dibuka di komputer saya. terpilihlah The Trees and The Wild yang saya dengarkan berulang ulang. dan saya cukup penasaran dengan lyricnya. dan saya rangkum satu album disini... ready?
VERDURE
Hush now, the morning’s too dark
High as a kite, as blue as your eyes
I’m putting out reasons
And see how far it’ll go
Go waste your time
With those hearts
Coldheart razorblades
Flesh from the lovers
Words about tomorrow
Feels so far away
Hopes will prevail
And we’ll be ok now
But the morning’s too dark
Summer i’ll wait for you
Winter i’ll wait for you
Nah, kalo yang ini lagu yang membuat gue jatuh cinta sama The Trees and the Wild.
HONEYMOON ON ICE
i’ll be sitting and i’ll be waiting for you
cause all this thoughts and all this hopes
will go blue
time awaits you now
and breaks you now
i’m on your side
i’m on your side
i’m on your side
and memories is all we got
so hold my hand
and we’ll ease it out
tonight tonight
i can feel you in my sleep
the fear of eve is in my grief
the smile of light is flashing both my eyes
i’ll be sitting and i’ll be waiting for you
Then, this is the lyric that really meaningful for me. idk why but i really love the lyric.
MALINO
menjemukan, rasa itu
menafsir mimpi, sehalus sepi
(rasa hati) melawannya, (rasa hati) seandainya
mari rasuk
bila kau rindu
aku ‘kan datang segera
senada
kau rindukan waktu yang pergi
datanglah kembali padaku
FIGHT THE FUTURE
so much to say
but i won’t make it quick
i lose my mind
each time i look at your eyes
so why don’t you close them?
and all those sleepless nights
reminds me of one thing though
how fast time passes us by
so why don’t we hold them?
i’ll fight the future for you (maybe)
i’ll fight the future for you (maybe)
i’m passing this old neighborhood
and see how it meant to you
i’m hoping you’ll be there
i’m hoping you’ll be there
i’ll fight the future for you (maybe)
i’ll fight the future for you (maybe)
and hope we’ll reach morning
hope we’ll reach morning
i thought you saw it too
i’ll fight the future for you (maybe)
i’ll fight the future for you (maybe)
kalo berlin ini lagu yang paling easy going untuk didengarkan. paduan musiknya LUAR BIASA!
BERLIN
your single side won’t be denied
your melodramatic instant sign
is beyond my reach
missing you is just too much
why don’t you just figure it out
you’re fading and i’m still waiting
those words that you wrote on the postcard
is as cold as the winter chill
seems to me it’s not a priority
it’s just another little sign
that you’re fading and i’m still waiting
you’ll fade away
KATA
Hitung nafas yang kelak berat
Kau ‘kan sakit dan pergi
Tanpa waktu yang pasti
Selamanya, selamanya
Melawan hati yang tak pernah padam
Akan hilang..
Ucapkan maaf
Dan kau pun ‘kan tetap disini
Selamanya, selamanya
dan yang ini, ahhhhhhh :'(
DERAU DAN KESALAHAN
Mulai tenang dari hati
Keangkuhan yang pergi
Pernahkah kau lihat
Dia diam disana sendiri?
Warna dan sinarnya
‘kan biaskan, biaskan
Derau dan kesalahan (dan penat)
Menetap hatimu
IRISH GIRL
Irish girl and irish boy
Is all you need to break toys
That’s all you need
That’s all you want
That’s all you see
Inside this grief
Follow me to start a war
Cause you won’t see your
Fading scores
That’s all you want
That’s all you need
For you i’ll bleed
Why can’t you see?
all you want is the truth
all you want is the truth
and in disguise you’ll
know what’s true
but i won’t see you now or
in two days
THE NOBLE SAVAGE
Bones and stones will collide with hopes
and fear of lust, old lust
don’t believe the words he sold so fierce
through those tubes, old tubes..
move inside your skin i don’t mind dying
and down to your heart inside and out
i wish i was blind just for awhile
an ageless cloak covers the oak
don’t believe a word
don’t believe a word
anchorage is so far don’t you think?
but why we’re feeling this blistering, blistering cold?
move inside your skin i don’t mind dying
and down to your heart inside and out
i wish i was blind just for awhile
an ageless cloak covers the oak
don’t believe a word
don’t believe a word
it lurks like spinning wheels
don’t believe in words
don’t believe in words
i’ll pay tribute to the wires and tubes
wires and tubes
wires and tubeS
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Random.
Eh well, ive been searching for a good time to write down something here.
sometimes i wonder if i deserve to got everything that happened in me.
but sometimes i couldnt understand why.
every person that i loved, lied.
every person that i need, gone.
seems like something aint right with my self.
i dont know why, maybe hate is just a word, cause i know it doesnt work to me.
i supposed to hate everyone. But i cant.
dear, sometimes i thinking, i thinking to escape from this life. Hide everything, cheat in my fate.
I want to be anyone else, i want to be someone. Different with me before. Someone who can understand the word between love and hate. Who can choose one of both.
sometimes i wonder if i deserve to got everything that happened in me.
but sometimes i couldnt understand why.
every person that i loved, lied.
every person that i need, gone.
seems like something aint right with my self.
i dont know why, maybe hate is just a word, cause i know it doesnt work to me.
i supposed to hate everyone. But i cant.
dear, sometimes i thinking, i thinking to escape from this life. Hide everything, cheat in my fate.
I want to be anyone else, i want to be someone. Different with me before. Someone who can understand the word between love and hate. Who can choose one of both.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Between Love And Lies
Yeah, this words is working for everyone.
AM I?
Whoaaaah, Hell it works.
Seems like NOTHING better between Promise and Lies
but LIES still LIES!
Oh man! It short of Me!!
And i'm pretty sure everyone wants this. Life is simple. Isn't it?
AM I?
Whoaaaah, Hell it works.
Seems like NOTHING better between Promise and Lies
but LIES still LIES!
Oh man! It short of Me!!
And i'm pretty sure everyone wants this. Life is simple. Isn't it?
Friday, February 3, 2012
Indonesia Oh Indonesia!!
Daaaaaaaang! I was in police station. You know what, its seems like UNBELIEVABLE!
Every single person that working here was a scalper. I never wondered that this kind of shit going around me.
well, let me explain, yeah yesterday, i accompanied my sister to get her license. So, we went to a police station.
okey, just called us "smartass" because we dont know a thing about that place, about how to get a license, how to registered and how to get out of that place.
well, everyone there was trying to begged me and my sister to cheating, they said that we just paid and we got a license. I dont really want it, cause i know that its very expensive. So we walking in the truth.
no one wanna give us a direction. Damn! What i supposed to did. I was freaking out and finally, there was someone, an old man who give us a little light in darkness. So here we are, we got that register paper. Wait till next week. God bless me. Smoch
Every single person that working here was a scalper. I never wondered that this kind of shit going around me.
well, let me explain, yeah yesterday, i accompanied my sister to get her license. So, we went to a police station.
okey, just called us "smartass" because we dont know a thing about that place, about how to get a license, how to registered and how to get out of that place.
well, everyone there was trying to begged me and my sister to cheating, they said that we just paid and we got a license. I dont really want it, cause i know that its very expensive. So we walking in the truth.
no one wanna give us a direction. Damn! What i supposed to did. I was freaking out and finally, there was someone, an old man who give us a little light in darkness. So here we are, we got that register paper. Wait till next week. God bless me. Smoch
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