Blah! This Is Life!!

Um, start with hello everyone. I meet up with this blog is such a 3 or more time a days, just because i have installed some application for my blog in my phone. Lol im trying so much to fit this app with my life. My phone should be working hard to serve my finger tips. Muahaha. I dont have any idea exactly. So, just write down whatever here. So just read. Ignore the wrong sentences. Ignore the wrong grammar. Enjoy!
First, my finger tips wanna dancing in Sunday Drive - The Early November lyric. Idk this song really meant so much for me, i really fucking love this song since the first time i listen this song. So, enjoy the lyric, sing along or go mocking, up to you guys.

And we wait above a road
We're turning to go home
And the silence from the side of the car
Tells me everything and how we are
'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right
There's no more trying tonight
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head
You say it's only me and that I'm so perfect for you
I just want you to be true to me, one time

And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head
Twelve days gone by since I have saw you last
I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best
And I'll ask "What could you be doing that is so much fun? Without me by your side? Without me by your side?"
And I will take a step back, and I'll let you ahead
And I will take a step away and see if you come back
Because there's no more trying to make this so right
There's no more trying, there's no more trying tonight

We'll never be the same
We will never be the same
We will never be the same until you're done



This is the deepest song i've ever heard. i cant listen to it without crying, because i am too that girl. The words are so simple, yet to describe my exact feelings. I guess this song kind of resembles how life goes. You lose loved ones, and no one can sem to fill that empty part of your heart. I think i cry when i hear this song because it makes me come to reality.
I know everyone can relate to this song at one point or another but it just hits home with me so much right now. I dated someone for more than 3 years and he just broke up with me. He's goes back and forth, sometimes telling me he loves me and sometimes acting completely indifferent and at first he seemed so torn and confused but then he really pulled away and then found out about him talking to someone else. It's like he's started this new life too, with this new group of friends, moving forward while i'm still stuck in one place. And i keep putting myself through the worst of it looking at all our old messages and photos when we were so happy and i keep asking the question he asks in this song: "What are you doing that's so much fun, that's so much better without me?" i keep trying. I keep trying to prove how it can be, but i know it's ruined now. I know it can't be the same knowing what has happened now. I just can't let it go. Just really fits. This is my life and i can't change it. I will always love him.. But i never be the same again.