Random.

Mommy mommy, i want that baby. Lets kidnap him. He's effing cute. I really mad of him. So, his father would kill me then. Lol.

His name is James, Lil Anthony Green.

Sorry, I Can't.

Bye January, Welcome February ;)

Just make a little handwriting before i go to bed. Morning all, see ya ;)

Blah! This Is Life!!

Um, start with hello everyone. I meet up with this blog is such a 3 or more time a days, just because i have installed some application for my blog in my phone. Lol im trying so much to fit this app with my life. My phone should be working hard to serve my finger tips. Muahaha. I dont have any idea exactly. So, just write down whatever here. So just read. Ignore the wrong sentences. Ignore the wrong grammar. Enjoy!
First, my finger tips wanna dancing in Sunday Drive - The Early November lyric. Idk this song really meant so much for me, i really fucking love this song since the first time i listen this song. So, enjoy the lyric, sing along or go mocking, up to you guys.

And we wait above a road
We're turning to go home
And the silence from the side of the car
Tells me everything and how we are
'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right
There's no more trying tonight
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head
You say it's only me and that I'm so perfect for you
I just want you to be true to me, one time

And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head
Twelve days gone by since I have saw you last
I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best
And I'll ask "What could you be doing that is so much fun? Without me by your side? Without me by your side?"
And I will take a step back, and I'll let you ahead
And I will take a step away and see if you come back
Because there's no more trying to make this so right
There's no more trying, there's no more trying tonight

We'll never be the same
We will never be the same
We will never be the same until you're done



This is the deepest song i've ever heard. i cant listen to it without crying, because i am too that girl. The words are so simple, yet to describe my exact feelings. I guess this song kind of resembles how life goes. You lose loved ones, and no one can sem to fill that empty part of your heart. I think i cry when i hear this song because it makes me come to reality.
I know everyone can relate to this song at one point or another but it just hits home with me so much right now. I dated someone for more than 3 years and he just broke up with me. He's goes back and forth, sometimes telling me he loves me and sometimes acting completely indifferent and at first he seemed so torn and confused but then he really pulled away and then found out about him talking to someone else. It's like he's started this new life too, with this new group of friends, moving forward while i'm still stuck in one place. And i keep putting myself through the worst of it looking at all our old messages and photos when we were so happy and i keep asking the question he asks in this song: "What are you doing that's so much fun, that's so much better without me?" i keep trying. I keep trying to prove how it can be, but i know it's ruined now. I know it can't be the same knowing what has happened now. I just can't let it go. Just really fits. This is my life and i can't change it. I will always love him.. But i never be the same again.

My Hand Writing

Today is my lazy day. So, i face my day with my hand writing. I hope it still clear to read. Cause i know its ugly. I hope it would entertain you. Cause i wrote so many jokes in that paper. Lol i lied ;) Whoah, sorry for my mistaken. Such a mistakes in grammar or wrong words. Cause i'm not a foreign lady. Damn i'm Indonesian :)

Break On Through - The Doors Lyric

You know the day destroys the night

Night divides the day

Tried to run

Tried to hide

Break on through to the other side

Break on through to the other side

Break on through to the other side, yeah

We chased our pleasures here

Dug our treasures there

But can you still recall

The time we cried

Break on through to the other side

Break on through to the other side

Yeah!

C'mon, yeah

Everybody loves my baby

Everybody loves my baby

She get

She get

She get

She get high

I found an island in your arms

Country in your eyes

Arms that chain us

Eyes that lie

Break on through to the other side

Break on through to the other side

Break on through, oww!

Oh, yeah!

Made the scene

Week to week

Day to day

Hour to hour

The gate is straight

Deep and wide

Break on through to the other side

Break on through to the other side

Break on through X4

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Never Shout Never- Time Travel

Nothing is real
I know this cause I made a deal
With the devil he told me I was just wasting my time on the moon
So I flew to the sun
Lost track of my soul on the run
Suffering 12 degree burns
I learned that the sun was no fun
So I ran back to earth
Tripped and fell in the glorified dirt
Honestly gravity sees me as a liability
So I held my breath
'Till my soul left my body for dead
I ripped through the clouds to talk to the man in the sky


I said take this for what it is
I think you're a tad bit prejudice against
The ones like us that are searching for the answers
He said kid you don't know shit
You should go back home and live
In that quite little town you left behind
I'm coming home
Don't you cry, (don't you cry)
I'm coming home
Just in time, (just in time)

I am a fake
A constant go-getter of fate
I lost track of time
I carried my mind on a plate
I seasoned it well
With acid and MDMA
Then I howled at the moon
'Till the sun burned out both of my eyes
So I checked my pulse
Standing there white as a ghost
I lacked in completion
And stabbed my reflection twelve times
So I held my breath
'Till my soul left my body for dead
I ripped through the clouds
To talk to the man in the sky



I said take this for what it is
I think you're a tad bit prejudice against
The ones like us that are searching for the answers
He said kid you don't know shit
You should go back home and live
In that quite little town you left behind
I'm coming home
Don't you cry, (don't you cry)
I'm coming home
Just in time, (just in time)


I don't know what I've been told
I will sell my soul to rock and roll
I don't know where to go
I have lost control, oh no
I don't know what I've been told
I will sell my soul to rock and roll
I don't know where to go
I have lost control, oh no
I don't know what I've been told
I will sell my soul to rock and roll

 

I don't know where to go
I have lost control, oh no
I don't know what I've been told
I will sell my soul to rock and roll
I don't know where to go
I have lost control, oh no


*FYI: gue baru sadar kalo ternyata dia nambah tatto lagi haha :D

Thanks For Nothing Kiss My Ass - The Downtown Fiction Lyric

I know the sun still shines when you're not around
I'm takin' it easy in the worst part of town
And now I find it wasn't meant to last
I have one thing to say and that's thanks for nothin' kiss my ass

I want some money
I want some fame
Want everybody to know my name
Want you to see me
in shining lights
And think about me when you're with him that night

[Chorus]
I know the sun still shines when you're not around
I'm takin' it easy in the worst part of town
And now I find it wasn't meant to last
I have one thing to say and that's
Thanks for nothin' kiss my ass, thanks for nothin' kiss my ass
I wrote a letter,I never sent
But I forgot,just how it went
It doesn't matter that much to me
Yours is the last face I ever want to see

[Chorus]
Because the sun still shines when you're not around
I'm takin' it easy in the worst part of town
And now I find it wasn't meant to last
I have one thing to say and that's

Thanks for nothin' kiss my ass

Oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh (2x)
I see the sun still shines when you're not around
I'm takin' it easy in the worst part of town
And now I find it wasn't meant to last
I have one thing to say and that's
Thanks for nothin' kiss my ass!!!!

Thanks For nothing, Kiss My Ass!! lagu yang diperuntukkan untuk semua orang yang, yah.. mmungkin lebih suka bergurau dengan hidupnya dalam menanggapi gue. dan, lagu ini serasa sangat bermakna ketika gue merasakan lagu ini SANGAT COCOK untuk gue dedikasikan kepada orang lain! entah siapa. haha

Hand in my pocket- Alanis Morissette Lyric

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm worthless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise

I'm shy but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxicab...

Ironic- Cameron Leahy (TDF) Covering Alanis Morissette's song

dan mungkin gue nggak akan pernah tau lagi ini kalo Cam nggak ngecover lagu ini. dulu sih gue pernah denger lagu ini cuma gue nggak tau ini lagu siapa dan apa maksudnya. tapi setelah Cam ngecovernya, gue langsung interested untuk mengetahui segalanya. karena menurut gue lagu ini Amazing! dengan lirik sederhana yang cukup menyentuh. hahaha

dan langsung aja liat performnya Cam dibawah ini.

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Chorus

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought ... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
'Well isn't this nice...'
And isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Repeat Chorus


Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

It's a traffic jam when you're already late
It's a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...
Repeat Chorus


Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

Dan ini dia si Cantik Alanis morissette. dan gue tergila sama karya karyanya dia sekarang. dengan lirik yang agak nyeleneh dan seenaknya, tanpa mengurangi makna. thats really coooooooooool!

nah ini dia official videonya. its classic, not clumsy right?

nah kalo dibawah ini salah satu live favorite gue. acoustic performance yang sangat indah. jauh banget dari lagu aslinya. kalo awalnya dia ngaransemen lagunya seperti ini pasti lebih enak didenger haha

IMPOSSIBLE!

well, postingan gue yang dipenuhi dengan rasa bt gue saat ini.
ohiya, seminggu ini adalah waktu untuk menunggu nilai nilai idiot gue pada semester 4 ini. dan, i hope more. but? wtf!
cukup kecewa sih gue sama hasil yang gue dapet. dan gue haruuuuuuuuuuuus bersiap untuk nerima resiko kalo gue harus ketinggalan mata kuliah lagi semester depan. faaaaaaaaaak! rasanya gue makin muak sama yang namanya kuliaaaaaah!

after a long long time..

sudah sangat lama gue nggak capcipcus disini. hehehe
oh iya karena disibukkan kuliah yang akhir semester banyak tugas dan minggu ini minggu minggu uas.
banyak banget yang pengen gue tulis, tapi mungkin nggak sekarang. gue harus nunggu leisure time nih. soalnya sekarang udah setengah 12 dan besok gue uas,. hehehe
satu lagi, banyak yang pengen gue upload disini. pokoknya gue janji bakalan posting everything disini. numpuk nih di otak haha

Welcome my new baby blue: )

Well, setelah sekian lama gue  kehilangan sosok yang amat gue butuhkan dalam kehidupan gue sehari-hari, akhirnya gue sekarang mendapatkan pengganti si baby blue itu,alias si notebook asus gu yang hampir setahun ini hilang.dan alhamdulillah, sekarang gue telah mendapatkan gantinya yang lebih manstap dari pada sekedar notebook l. Hehehehe yup, gue mengganti sibaby blue notebook gue itu dengan handphone Motorola Milestone xt720 yang notabenenya enggak keluar di Indonesia.dengan Os android dan itu sangat mempermudah gue untuk ngapain aja, termasuk ngeblog setiap saat.hahahha jadi nggak perlu ada kata nggak ada waktu untuk ngeblog deh, hehehe: )

Dan ini gue abis download aplikasi blogaway,, yaaah semoga berguna untuk kedepannya. Amin: )

Paulieeeee :')

Blah! I love him <3 br="">

perverted mind

when I heard someone say that he/she is fed up with his/her life, he/she wanted to suicide him/herself, or he/she was regretted have living in this world, it sounds like i lived in "EMO WORLD". :D

actually, it's sucks when you know someone that really closed to you, and you know everything about him/her,  he/ she said that he/she is fed up with her/him live. it just like he/she punch me with the biggest fist ever.

i tried to ask why but, there's no answer! he/she just ask that she/he is really fed up with her/his life.  just like an EMO story, right?? that the common story look liked.

i dont wanna say more than this word. well, Good Night :)

Love me two times - The Doors Lyric

Love me two times, baby
Love me twice today
Love me two times, girl
I'm goin' away
Love me two times, girl
One for tomorrow
One just for today
Love me two times
I'm goin' away

Love me one time
I could not speak
Love me one time
Yeah, my knees got weak
But love me two times, girl
Last me all through the week
Love me two times
I'm goin' away
Love me two times
I'm goin' away

Oh, yes

Love me one time
I could not speak
Love me one time, baby
Yeah, my knees got weak
But love me two times, girl
Last me all through the week
Love me two times
I'm goin' away

Love me two times, babe
Love me twice today
Love me two times, babe
'Cause I'm goin' away
Love me two time, girl
One for tomorrow
One just for today
Love me two times
I'm goin' away
Love me two times
I'm goin' away
Love me two times
I'm goin' away 

 

 

Dayum! I really love this song! Mojo Risin is a perfection <3 br="">

Not A Second To Waste - A Rocket to The Moon lyrics

I'm checking your pulse
I'm giving you air
But your body disagrees
And no it don't care at all
I'm wasting my time

Now your eyes roll awake
You're looking at me
You say "Darling what happened did I fall asleep?"
And you carry me home
Cause I know I wasn't here

I'm closing your blinds
I'm shutting your eyes
And now I
I'm afraid I have to go
Whoa

I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite off
In my heart
It's occupied
And now's not the time

Let's try this again
And this time don't laugh
Cause I'm working on my sentences
I'm working on my play on words
I'll get it this time

If I am a clock than you are the time
I'm patiently waiting in your out of line
And I'll be the question
If you'll be the answer

I'm closing your blinds
I'm shutting your eyes
And now I
I'm afraid I have to go
Whoa

I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite off
In my heart
It's occupied
And now's not the time

If I am a clock than you are the time
I'm patiently waiting in your out of line
I'm counting the times, you've lied to my face
My hands move forward
Not a second to waste

I'm closing your blinds
I'm shutting your eyes
And now I
I'm afraid I have to go
Whoa

I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite off
In my heart
It's occupied
And now's not the time
The time

NEVER SHOUT NEVER - OVER THE YEARS lyrics

I'm sorry for the nights I let you down
Now all that's left to say is that I turned around
Back to the boy you fell in love with
Not this plague that brings you down
Remind your mom to call me I still care
Cause her approval meant the world
And I will not dare to disagree
With the life you arranged
Just remember only God knows if I've changed
I'll sing along to every song
I'll tag along for the ride
Cause in my head,
I'm right there too,
Through the good times
The bad ones too
I'm here for you
Cause in my dreams
You're the one who keeps me asleep
On the nights where I can care less
If I ever woke up again

Oh BEGINI toh RASANYA!

Gue ditawarin jadi guru les private bocah bocah SD gitu sama temen gue, si Rusda. tepat tanggal 22nya gue ngajar lah dirumah siswa yang bersangkutan. rumahnya didaerah pamulang gitu deh, untungnya gue dianterin sama ryan jadi gue bisa dapet alamatnya, karena sebelumnya gue nggak tau sama sekali daerah situ ckck ;p

Murid ke-1: F

Nah, pas gue ketemu bocahnya,namanya si f, suaminya si fitri kayaknya. ckckck :D

gue agak bingung apa yang harus gue ajarkan ke itu anak yang masih kelas 3 SD, dan gue kebetulan ngajarin dia mata pelajaran MATH, setelah itu dengan perasaan lega ternyata ibunya nyodorin buku PR dan Lks yang harus dikerjakan itu bocah. anaknya lucu kok, pandai bercerita, tapi nggak tau deh cerita ngarang atau beneran hahahaa yang jelas nyambung deh, dan untungnya gue ngajarin anak cowo, jadi nggak lenjeh dan menye- menye :D

pertemuan ke 3 yang paling membingungkan, tiba tiba tu bocah nangis pada gue dateng kerumahnya, eh ternyata si f nya lagi tidur trus dibangunin nyokapnya, makanya dia nangis, ckckc gue ledekin eh malah gue diomelin sama emaknya. hahaahahaha kocak :D

dan dia termasuk murid pinter yang menyenangkan kalo diajarin sih. hehehe

Murid ke-2, Rz.

nah hari ini gue disuruh nggantiin guru private yang berhalangan hadir untuk ngajar di daerah pamulang juga, kelas 3 SD juga, namanya Rz. berbekal dengan pengalaman yang gue tau sedikit tentang Pamulang akhrinya gue meluncurlah kesana. pas gue nyampe, yaaaaa gitu deh, anaknya rada gendut, tapi nggak gendut banget sih, cerewet!

berbeda dengan ngajar dirumah f, kalo ngajarin Rz langsung di kamarnya. jadi gue langsung menuju kamarnya sama Rz, dan memulai membuka pelajaran apa yang akan kita bahas karena besoknya dia ulangan harian. Oke, tentang Food and Drink dan Transportation. belum lama gue buka itu buku paketnya si bocah, eh ngeliat nyokapnya beranjak dari kamar dia langsung bolang gini "Miss, main bola yuuuk, boleh yang pake kertas, boleh juga yang pake spidol, terserah miss deh!" GUBRAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKK!!!!gue aja belum sempet sedikitpun capcipcus sama tu bocah tapi dia udah langsung ngajakin gue main! EMAAAAAAAKKK, gimana ni bocah gue ajak belajar kalo diotaknya cuma kepikiran bola yang mirip kaya badannya itu, upppppppppps, keceplosan ;p

oke, gue rayu rayu dia pake cara sok imut untuk belajar. akhirnya dia mau juga. gue tanyain tentang segala macem materi dan dia tau semua. bagus bagusss, jadi murid gue itu emang harus pintar, hahahaha :D

dan dalam waktu itu, dia mulai curhat tentang lagu kesukaannya yaitu I HEART YOU-SMASH! oh my gosh! selama gue memberikan pengarahan dan menjelaskan pelajaran, yang dia lakukan adalah mendendangkan lagu smash dengan gaya repper. God bless! dan karena kesel yang tertahan, akhirnya gue tanya, "eh, emang kamu mau jadi penyanyi yah??" dan dengan polos dia menjawab " Enggak miss, aku cuma suka banget sama lagu itu sampe sampe aku tuh hafal". gue diem, merenung,ngantuk, dan mikir gimana caranya memusnahkan suaranya dia dari telingan gue. dan lo tau apa selanjutnya?? dia mengambil PIANIKAnya, dan mulai memainkan intro awal lagu APUSE, eh buset, lu kira gue ngajarin seni! Seneng kayaknya gue dengerin lu mainin kaya gituan ckckckc. dan untungnya dia nggak berani main pianika kebanggaannya dia dengan kenceng kenceng karena takut kedengeran nyokapnya. 

1 jam berlalu, dan dia mulai bertingkah aneh seakan ingin menyudahi ini semua dan mulai untuk bermain bola yang nggak jelas itu. and finally, setengah jam terakhir gue habiskan dengan bermain bola ngantuk. semoga gue lebih bisa mengatasi situasi situasi yang membingungkan seperti ini. amin

Turn Around :)

welp, seminggu lebih setelah ulang tahun gue. hahaha..
banyak yang tertinggal yang belum gue tuliskan disini. well, gausah banyak basa basi, langsung aja.


i've got this from my beloved friends :)
awal yang mengerikan, rabu siang dengan emosi tinggi gue berangkat ke kosan, dengan tujuan lanjut yaitu ke kampus. dalam perjalanan si elma nggak ada henti- hentinya sms gue ngajakin berantem dengan menuduh gue sebagai pecundang yang menghancurkan novelnya dia!  dengan emosi yang udah nggak bisa tertahan lagi akhirnya gue nyampe kamar dan....
SURPRISE :D

mereka ternyata ada dibalik semua pemicu emosi gue. hahahaaha :D
coba kalian tanya apa arti mereka untuk gue *maksa :p
dan gue pasti akan menjawab, mereka, adalah pelangi dalam hidup gue. mereka selalu memberi warna dan warni.. ckckck, gombal ;p

photo sessions :D