Say All That You Have To Say!

Is there a right way for how this goes?
You've got your friends
And you've got your foes
They want a piece of something hot
Forget your name like they forgot

Oh, ain't that something?

Some wanna see you crash and burn
And criticize your every word
I'm trying to keep from going insane
Ain't that the way of this whole damn thing

Oh, trying to be something more

Nobody's gonna love you if
You can't display a way to capture this
Nobody's gonna hold your hand
And guide you through
No it's up for you to understand
Nobody's gonna feel your pain
When all is done
And it's time for you to walk away
So when you have today
You should say all that you have to say

Say all that you have to say

Is there a right way for being strong?
Feels like I'm doing things all wrong
Still I'm here just holding on
Confess my heart and forgive my wrongs.

Oh, just trying to show you something more

Nobody's gonna love you if
You can't display a way to capture this
Nobody's gonna hold your hand
And guide you through
It's up for you to understand
Nobody's gonna feel your pain
When all is done
And it's time for you to walk away
When you have today
You should say all that you have to say

Don't point the blame when you can't find nothing
Look to yourself and you might find something
It's time that we sorted out
All of the things we complain about

So listen close to the sound of your soul
Take back a life we led once before
If it ain't you then who?...
If it ain't you then who's gonna love you?

Nobody's gonna love you if
You can't display a way to capture this
Nobody's gonna hold your hand
And guide you through
It's up for you to understand
Nobody's gonna feel your pain
When all is done
And it's time for you to walk away
When you have today
You should say all that you have to say

So when you have today
Say all that you have to say 

it's a lyric from Sleeping With Sirens. I'm falling too far with this song. The lyrics is so me, i mean, i could feel it. Or maybe, i feel it right now. I don't know, uh! This things is happened so damn fast and I couldn't rest my head. i think my head gonna be explode. I've been feel this for more than three week. 
Well,stop guessing what happened to me. I'm gonna tell ya right now.
I was being quite close with someone. someone that I adored. I just don't know why, I can't handled something such a love at the first glanced thing! it happened actually. and damn, it always made me need something more from it. 
We talked, we had a great convo. We imagined something together, we did the cruelest thing together, we did something awful, we made something funny, we made a damn boring jokes, we made something absurd to be something that interested to talk about. Just like that. We did it! Yes we did it! And it so made my day! He can't even out of my mind. I smiled if i could every time i looked on my ipad. all my friend said that i'm crazy but blaaah, i don't give a damn. i love it that way.
More than one month, everything looked so fine. until one day i didn't replied his chat, because I thought, i'm running out of my words. i just can't even thinking what kind of jokes that i should tell him again. and I think it's getting lame. so i decided to ended it up. Whoa. and everything is end up. i mean, it literally end. Ahahaha it's funny. so funny.
And then, guess what?? We've met the fucking up! In a quite little town he lived behind. Well, let me make it clear, I've got a plan to coming to some beatles tribute to another city, which is the city where he lives on. And, finally we met. And we met. And we met. I mean, i am making a friends with his friends too. So i came to his friend house and met him and his another friends too. Friends of friend are friend too. Ok well stop thinking too much about friends of friend thing. The point in this line is, we've met. And daaaaang! Daaaaaang!! Please give me your best head shot! 

Shweeeeel, fags. I think i should stop talking about this shit. There's nothing much to say. For now, this all was my fault.

I am in a wrong circle. I am in a wrong feeling. And it's so wrong to be in love. I'm in love with a man who sold his world. And another man getting mad in love with me. Wrong point, wrong mission, wrong way, wrong feel. Everything seems so wrong. I couldn't even breathe. 

The funny way is, we're all don't know. I don't know, he don't know, and they don't know. We're living in unknown feeling for some unknown pleasure. We've been in that unknown feeling for more that one month. This was funny to say that, yep. I'm in love. And i don't know how to handle it. Being loved by someone and loving someone is a totally different thing. The truth is, i really can handle someone who loved me better that handle my feeling about loving someone. I'm such a coward. My friends said that i am an idiot. I am such a stupid little girl who never be in loved instead the fact that i'm the only one who cant handle love itself. It such a hard things to do, to be honest with yourself. Honest with your crush. Honest with people around you. Because sometimes they don't understand. How hard this feel would be, how strong this love could be. 

And in the end, i tell the truth to someone. Someone who know him better. And surprisingly, surprisingly, surprisingly. Everything is full of surprise. So i should enjoy this show. 

Sorry for being such a silly little girl who wrote something randomly.